Feeling Good, Trying to Keep it Going

So this last week has been like the best mental health I have ever had ever in my whole life, ever! 

And in Januray?  What is wrong with me. 

I think a huge reason is that this last week has fallen pretty much exactly in between my god awful periods.  Which means a huge reaosn for this feeling awesome is simply hormones, lame.  It's also when I started going to bed at like 9 pm and getting up around 6 am, this sleep schedule seems to work really well for me.  Then on top of it I signed up for some CSAs this week, and got a new futon and scubbed the kitchen.

So we've got happy hormones, some good self care, and some growth and change going on.  All these combine made for a happy me.  I wasn't happy 100% of the time, but I felt extremely content with my life. 

So the hard part will be trying to keep this up.  Trying to beat the system of PMS and hormones.  I can't take hormonal birth control to help me, I'm breastfeeding (note: the progeston-only pill (mini pill) is safe, but not estrogen, I think it messes up supply), and I don't remember things being better on birth control, I remember things being worse and me getting really hungry while I was on them and basically gaining like 25 pounds. 

Ok I write about PMS a lot, but it's like THE issue I have right now, other mental health stuff is pretty good, life is pretty good, family is pretty good, it's the shitty thing I RUMINATE on. 

I told you this blog was all about rumination, shallow, not-well-thought-out rumination.  I don't think many read this, if oyu do, you are super cool and should call me on the telephone and hang out with me, becase, seriously, you must "get' me somehow. 

lol, I don't even know if my own husband reads this, oh well, I sometimes miss his blog too. 

OK.  Back to feeling good.  It's too late, my brain is now crumbling into not good mental health. 

I have to hang out with FAMILY (not my immediate) tonight.  Really hoping my bad sleep schedule (from work) doesn't turn me into a huge bitch.  I guess even if it does, I've already ruined my relationship with them pretty well so far. (Kidding, kind of)