Can I Just Bitch About PMS For a Little Bit?

Yes you may!

Here goes.

Fuck PMS.

Fuck hormones that seem to effect some of us way more than others.  Fuck feeling like a crazy person for like 5 days a month.  Fuck spotting for like three days before the actual period starts making it seem like PMS is longer than it is supposed to be.

Fuck the lack of treatment for PMS.  Fuck birth control being used to treat PMS and PMDD.  Fuck that, I want something else.  Fuck me for for being so stubborn and not taking medication when I probably should so that I'm not up writing at midnight like a maniac.  Fuck medication.  Fuck side effects.  Fuck, "we don't really know why SSRIs work or don't work."  Fuck that, do better science.

Fuck that my only two options are hormonal birth control or SSRIs.  Fuck the lack of options.  It's the twenty fucking first fucking century.  Fuck that I just wrote a post about wanting to not feel like this.

Fuck changing PMS symptoms and changing periods.  I get fucking used to it being one way and then you fucking change it on me and I have to cope with it all again.  Fuck that.

Fuck staying seeing the bright side.  Fuck fertility.  I almost want to be pregnant again just to end this, except I think pregnancy was worse.  Fuck being sensitive to hormones, seriously fuck that.  Fuck pregnancy making my periods so much fucking heavier.  Fuck the end of my light, not so bad, not so painful periods. 

Fuck that PMS is so bad that I wish my super heavy, painful period would just get here already!  Fuck not feeling like myself.  Fuck insomnia during PMS.  Fuck.